Fight for Myself

There are times i want to scream
at the world that shows me no mercy
the loves lost and won yet never there
the fear of lonelyness that creeps
inside the walls
wars of mind body and soul
never ending
lost in something that doesnt exsist
waiting endlessly for it
screaming crying alone in darkness
waiting for the hand that
pulls me out
everything that i do
never seen or heard
missing peices of my heart
shadowed by the hurt
yes there are time i want
to scream so loud and hard
ending this
but in the end i throw
my arms around myself
i have myself for now
and someday i will find
the emptyness gone

Cat Sept 9 2007